Jessica's Journal :D

Have the urge to blog as.... My mind is tank with thoughts...
hmmm.... I have been very excited that my family is going to move house (indo) in June! Which is on my lunar bday!
Bro sent me those pics on how they r renovating it and especially my room!!! *excited*
Excited on having karaoke room (everyone's fav) as singing is our bonding time!
Excited to try out bro's couple jacuzzi in his room and bla bla bla.....

However... Suddenly I began to think of, how about our current house????!
mom gonna rent it out since we're moving away.... But.....
i feel so emotional after thinking about it!!! :(
all the memories began to flow through my mind... 
On how I remembered clearly mom guiding the tukangs on renovating it to moving in....
remember how mom used to take pics of my bro in me on diff parts of the house.. Haha
really miss those times, which was my childhood :)

I remembered vividly that my cousin will stayover at our house on weekends and we will swim too!!
and mom always forbid me to join them as she's really unsupportive of me being so dark -.-"' 
so I'll hide in the room and cried..! Hahaha

Also... There were memories of my late grandpa and grandaunty.... Who took care of my bro n me when dad n mom were in Japan...
grandpa loved to cook fish for our meals n bro will just grumped.. Haha
ohya! And how grandpa took the broom to chase my bro's friends away!!
sigh.. Really miss the moments and also my beloved grandpa...

My late grandaunty doted on my bro and me so much.. She loved kids and always gave the best to us though sometimes she nag alot... Missed those times when we lazed on the couch watching Taiwan drama tgt and how she taught me hokkien
songs... Assure me that she will not abandon me when mom was biased on my bro... Sigh... I seriously miss her and grandpa..

If time can rewinds, I really hope to treat them better and let them know how much they meant to me...
however in life, there's no rewind button but only forward...
so I'll just be contented that at least they were once in my life...thankful for the memories created :')

So yeah...... In conclusion... I'm just homesick and miss my childhood moments to the bits........

Ok I am all excited for tmr's trip with bb! A mini get away!! After that gonna walk towards my goal!! I wanna try n learn as many things as I could! I'm still young and of course I do have chance in becoming a successful person!! Steve jobs is my motivation!! Gambatte Jess!! U live once and give it your best shot! ;) oyasumi!!!

怎么办呢..........?

The first thing to do when my eyes r open is to smell my cadigan!!! It feels like b greeting me a good good morning!!! :) :) hopefully time flies today!

I desperately want to be there for you. Do you know that? Sigh..........

I'm feeling so down right now :(
My heart feels so weak... It's tearing... To see him carrying all the burdens..
Teach me... What can I do? How can I do to let him know that I'm desperately here for him...
I want to share his burden.. At least to let him know that I'm here for him and he is not alone.... :'(


It really hurts me to see him this way....
With all the heavy work... Heavy feeling..
Despite all this, he still can wear that wide smile on his face to assure everyone that he's ok...
Y m I such a failure?? To just realize it now?!?!

I fail so badly.. Terribly... :'(


God, I am sorry..... I backslided... I threw my faith on u away...
However... Whenever I'm troubled... Disheartened.. Ur name is there..
I want you God... Please....

Strengthen him with all your mighty power!!!
Enlighten him to be positive! Optimist!!!
Make him firm as a person who is decisive!!!
Threw all his troubles away!!! Away and forever!!!!
Make him a happier person! With no burdens on him....
As light as he can fly..

Oh lord.. In your name lord... I believe u r there hearing my prayer..
Please.. Please lord.. Grant it... In your name I say.... Amen..

It's been sooo long since I update my journal!!! Soo much spider web yo!! Whahahaha. Doubt anyone still visit this blog! :p

Ok so my life... Quite a huge change!! From a hectic student life to a marketing girl in AP Assets :) hehehee! A grown up lady now!! :p

Yiyi chatting with me non stop now while I'm blogging!! Shall stop here first!!!

Test test

Test test!!!

Jessica is feeling........ bete -.-
gara2.. projek ya?kok gitu ya. padahal kita sudah janjian mau ktmuan bikinin biar bisa cepet sls n burden's gone.
tapi masa 1jam before meeting time bilang gak bs... jd batal d. and di smsin tanya bisa gak ganti waktu meet tp gak dibales2 -.- n in the end, dalam3mggu holiday ini projeknya blom selesai jg :( haih.... emang yah kata tmn2 gak usah terlalu baik. padahal g kasianin 2tmn itu tkt d gak ada group yauda offer this tp masa awalnya begini ya?haiiiiiiiiih capeeee d.

tadi siang ikut yiyi pegi gereja St Andrew's Cathedral yg d City Hall. Hmmmmm, pastornya baik tapi yah suasananya beda bgt sama City Harvest Church :/ Di CHC bisa feel god's presence more... atau mgkin gara2 barusan k gerejanya aja ya. smoga bisa adapt d. I know God's always with me ^^

Akhirnya besok masuk skul jg. hehhee. rada excited buat results exam sih soalnya g dah belajar ampe banting tulang(is it a correct way to express it??) hehehe. smoga nilai yg g dpt at least beyond my expectation ya??amin.. and have i mentioned that God really answers my prayers :) pertama2 dia rewards me with financial blessing :) gaji yg di shabuhana d increase n ada tawaran tuk jd guru les ^^ hahaha. smoga aja g ada patiencenya tuk ajarin. phewww. tapi at the same time, g jg gak blh neglect my studies! maudah bikin jadwal nih nti. hohoho.

whoah.. blog pake bhs indo kyknya lbh ada byk yg mau dibicarain d. huahuahua. hmmm, sebenarnya g ada 1 prob lg nih, tp lbh confidential sih :/ kl ada yg mau curhat ama g, sms g okok?? i'll be most glad :) n g skrg bener2 kgn ama dia -.- haiiiih.. MIA tuh org. td yiyi bilang, "tadi temen bilang ada 1 case of H1N1 loh di Bali." whoaaaah, hatiku kyk lgsg tertusuk! :(  i hope everything's alright.

okay, everyone. smangat in everything ya! yg lg holiday, enjooooy sepuas2nya okok?:)
yg lg skul, belajar mati2an yo! ^^
yg lg kerja...... don't stress!!
hehehhehehe! byebye!!


ps: ONAGASUITAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! -.-